Page 48 - Excerpts from the diary

both snack, and fat, and even onions. Only forgot about bread, I do not know what now to do.
Germans helped out: replaced loaf for one pack of cigarettes. But, nevertheless, calm did not come there will be
many people: will not be enough for all, and I have rusted crackers.
One more trouble buttons for braces, and trousers wide tore, slip considerably from top to bottom. How will I
reach to Henigsdorf now? And there, in Haylikenzey at me still the bicycle a trouble and a lawsuit double.
The raincoat is sold for 5,5 thousand. Good, big, new, red skin. There is a wish to have, so there is a wish, even
slobbers flow, and money of porridge asks... Has bought the typewriter elegant such... There will be a joy for
mother and me on advantage. I will be able to print the things. It is small, in a case so has held in one of my
suitcases. Now I have seven suitcases, the eighth small both two overcoats, and the bicycle, and the radio
receiver and is so much trouble and cares ahead.
Germany you did not become boring, but with pleasure I abandon you, dissolute and empty. Nothing in you is
present surprising, anything there is no joyful. But life in you cheerful and carefree, cheap, is a lot of noise and
chatter. And Russia I do not remember anymore how it looks, I do not know how lives and what it is interesting
now by. Its earth which, apparently, as chocolate is ready to gnaw endlessly the greedy teeth is expensive to me,
to lick the language broken in German and rigid lips to kiss, washed by blood and tears. It will be hard for me, I
know. I will give work and health to the victim; mind and endurance and the will. But I will achieve! I so want, it
is so necessary!
Life faced me.