Page 47 - Excerpts from the diary

then with another, having risen on tiptoe (he is a dwarf growth), smiled with captation, what I eat? And when I
angrily asked 'What you want?' turned away. Then he departed, without changing a smile, 'Schmeckt gut?', and
long then twisted a nose, smelled and looked around small, even from under points, eyes that precisely became at
its presence. It was long spat by cherries, feeling the only calm at the sight of this human disgrace. But the train
approached, and went away, was forgotten.
There were many cherries not to overcome. Fortunately in the car there were two girls of years of seven
everyone. They funny played a game answer in which, by the way, there were questions very adult: «Your heart
is still free?» and others, involuntarily became ridiculously and funny. Gave all cherries to them they were glad!
Nearby the French very modest and valid go. Entered, greeted one well scratches in German. Treated them with
candies. Are glad. Long ago, speak, did not eat such.

It was weighed 62 kilograms lost exactly 4 kilograms. Much, but it is much less, than expected. Started a beard,
mustache, it became unrecognizable and grew old by sight. The hairdresser at whom had a shave in Berlin,
defined to me 3035 years! Originally!
The chief of Base is cunning on inventions. Gave me a job 6 gondola cars: I carry boards
from Kremmen to Henigsdorf. The day carrier, the security guard thus, nothing to tell, officer loading! I go.
And houses I have a funny woman 17yearold. Is concerned about the future, asks whether I marry her. The third
night I sleep with her together. Is modest, hesitates. Pretends that it is innocent and clean. God knows, also the
truth, a grain of truth in it can.
The third day I do not write letters. Headache, concern, syphilis fear feverish. Every day I look for sores on a
body and rash, but I do not find yet, and there is no consolation evil thoughts.
In Kremmen got a referral in Noyrupin on consultation.

09.18.1946

Yesterday was in the market. Has bought gloves, socks on several couples, it is a lot of hats and peakcaps of
different colors suits will be, time is what to cover the head. The radio receiver did not manage to be bought.
Now it is necessary to get the typewriter and tires for the bicycle.
Ruth is annoying and tearful. Loves me passionate, but specific love. For example, my means are not spared also
by the egoist if there is a glass of water Seltzer, and in general something tasty will eat till the rest if only I offer
her, of course.

Now in Berlin in the train. Germans chew both in the car and at stops it is some family ruminant. People decently
dressed, representative by sight slowly unwrap the bread puff accurately wrapped up in the newspaper and,
without hesitating, begin to bring to a mouth in full view of public. With bread in teeth it is possible to meet both
on streets, and in the bathroom, and in the train, and in the tram, and in line, and at a counter of shop, and in
public places, and in institutions, and in operating time in offices or on the street, near bricks, coal, boards where
there takes place loading. At all not because they are hungry. Just owing to the rule of continuous care of
maintenance of a stomach approved here.

09.19.1946

Berlin.
Now everything was resolved. Not without diligence of the Reverend Yuryev decided to accuse me, for formality,
i.e. having referred to my trustfulness, a softhearted (I do not hide this sin for myself, but only in this case he is in
guilt charged to me). However, will not hold from anybody as decided to enlist a shortcoming on account of
packing of the echelon with transformers sent the day before.
Bought many products, two bottles of vodka. Decided to celebrate. About one thousand marks left. Everything is: