Page 46 - Excerpts from the diary

Again spent the night at Margot. She changed a little: pretty, but hands at her became covered by pimples, she
scratched them on all body and now I am a little fastidious, but not so to leave absolutely her. Last night, when all
left, concerned even such forbidden parts of her body, as are not called words freely.
Now I write, and she looks. It is very interesting to her to know, and mummy, smiling, says: 'But you cannot
read'. Now I kiss Margot at mummy. Earlier she did not allow the daughter even to sit up late with me. And
before going to bed, I even agreed with the girl that she came to me at midnight. And only shadowing and
observation of mother served as an obstacle, for taste of all sweets of a dream and proximity corporal with her.
Earlier she hid exact date of the birth, said that she is 18 years old, and yesterday mother and the daughter serially
admitted that to the girl only 16.
Just processed Margot, but itself was not satisfied. It all without the movement is also obedient as a thing. It
happened to me to work doubly, was tired terribly, but only my initiative did not lead to anything urgent. When I
released... she grabbed with hands and began to play. Only then scattered dairy foam. To the room dragged
through a window. Even the chair substituted. My neighbors confer and engaged so it was smoothly. She, I repeat
if resisted, then only for the sake of appearance. A beautiful body, but everything is scratched by pimples, and
depth wet and smelly. The head is amazing. The neighboring room was cleaned by Inga and listened and when I
passed then along the corridor, looked at me is proud and opened.
The major Skorkin, probably, is dissatisfied with my trip. All said that I quickly went to him as the trip to
Potsdam, for attachment of Base, our to Voentorg, is necessary, but I, in a conversation, have not reminded him of
it, and he has told that it is necessary to work, but not to drive about. Well and let. Through the chief of staff I will
try to obtain.

03.24.1946

Night already the old woman late and deep. Shy asterisks in the sky grew dim. Also, radio is silent the whole
Europe sleeps. Far favorite Moscow does not speak already, tired of day works. And only to me it is not dozed,
and my eyes watch silence.
Did not manage to be given assignment in any commission on iron metering as the new decision of the
major Skorkin on the direction me the chief of labor was ahead of it, but also there stayed not for long. In two
days (yesterday) suggested to hand over me a name of the chief of Base the duties to other officer, and most to go
to a long and continuous business trip the chief of an intrabrigade revolving object.
Problem! The other day officers go to live to other place, and I can appear before the fact of leaving of all my
things and apartments without supervision, on plunder of the street. In my absence will receive manufactured
goods from Voentorg, without me there will be Veltensky German girls, and Berlin will hardly see me more the
jacket back, their suitcases is sewed there.
Kremmen too a subject of thoughts there boots, and in Veltena, in addition, I needed to sew an overcoat and to
receive the radio receiver for which paid already money.

07.24.1946

Berlin Ostkroyts.
All newspapers appearing in Germany, Germans, subdivide into Russian, English, American, French and
party communistic, socialist, Christian Democrat, liberal and others, do not consider.
BerlinRaynikendorf. I go back to Henigsdorf. Bought products on fingers to count, and money 700 marks as did
not happen. Now accept German that at Hitler had a turnover, well. At me them was to five hundred got rid.
Cherries fresh became wet and broke off an envelope. It was necessary to liquidate them, and I, at all the become
ambassador of an illness of especially distinguished fastidiousness, without having washed them and without
having refreshed hands, began to eat immediately at the station.
The such morel approached me, the shabby malicious German, and glanced in the beginning on the one hand,